Hoping for the Best, Leave Out All the Rest

2010 is at the door ladies and gentlemen and i know ya'll are gonna celebrate it tonight one way or the other.. but please be careful with whatever you'll be doing, allright?? :) and me?? naaahh.. i won't be doing anything in particular.. i don't celebrate new years because none of them brought me good luck.. not at all, you already know that right? and it's not an extraordinary event for me.. i'm getting a year older and everything's been fucked up!! and since i don't have my husband right beside me, why and what's to celebrate?? but i know i'll have my family beside me whenever i need them. and it's cool!! oh, maybe not that cool :(

so you know:

Life is brutal.

Life is so complicated.

Life likes to screw people up.

Life is a big fat biatch.

Life is not that awesome.

Life is a one-eyed monster.

Life has its own way to proceed.

Life does not need us. maybe we need it.

Life is a total nightmare.

Life has its own rules. and wants us to play those rules.

Life always gets the leadership. no matter what..

Life GOES ON having its own way. all the time..

...

yet, LOVE?? makes things softer and less painful.. if you have some.. deep down inside yourselves of course..

so wish you (and us too, of course) a freaking awesome year full of love love love...

God Bless Ya'll..

love,
 xoxo,

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Day 20: Notes...

Dear Hubby,

you know today is the last day

of 2009, right??

oh, "it sucks" ?

i know.. i know..

but what really sucks for me actually is

the fact that

i'm gonna step in to the

new year

with-out you!!
...

you know i DON'T do 

any kinds of celebrations

for new years

on the new year's eve..

so i'm not sure

what i'm gonna do tonight

but i guess this one will be no different,

trust me..

we'll see how this whole new year

will turn out for us..

but i'm definitely praying everyday

that it'll be really good

and awesome..

after all we've been through,
all that shit,
all those tears visible
or invisible,
all those fights we had,
all those hardships we
failed to get over,
all those days we spoke not
a single word,
and all those 'etc.'s;

well, it better be..

right?

hoping you'll have a good new year's eve..
yeah, hoping...

love,

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Wish-List Items for the New-Year: #5 and #6

so i think these are the last ones... well, i'm not exactly sure though!! more might come :)

so who wouldn't want a car??

{oh god, how i'd die to have a red mini cooper}

and who wouldn't want to see The United States for real you know??

{you are definitely: a sweet dream or beautiful nightmare}
{either way i, don't wanna wake up from ya!}

love,

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Fabulous Quote of the Day

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. - Sam Keen




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love,

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Just a Minute... in December

it's the 29th again, so time to play Just a Minute... which is prepared by Jena at August Street.. if you'd like to participate this chain, please visit her blog or simply click on the image right below on my right sidebar..

Listening to Jay-Z and Alicia Keys's "Empire State of Mind".. because it's a really kick ass song and it's about New York, which totally relates to my new Sex and The City obsession these days...

Watching Sex and The city like really really crazy!! i get up, go wash my face, brush my teeth, have NO breakfast, turn the laptop on and watch it till i go to sleep... i know, it's sick.. but you know i have nothing to do all day so i have so much free time to do that (i'm not bragging about it. having nothing to do is just awful).

Eating almost no-thing for like 20 days or something. i don't know why but i don't get hungry for real. for example, all i ate today was 2 or 3 slices of cake. should i go see a doctor or something?

Looking Forward To seeing how this whole new 2010 will turn out to be for me and for my husband. after all we've had so far, i think we deserve to have something nicer for real. am i asking for too much?

Dreaming of a brighter future, which i'll be having a really satisfying job and i'll be lucky enuf to see the U.S. some time...

Planning not to do any kinds of celebrations on new year's eve... as usual...

Just Beginning to miss my husband i guess. well, i can't exactly say that i do already but i think i've just started to feel his absence, which appearently won't be feeling ok -i guess...

love,

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Sex and The City: New Era

WOw!! oh yeah, there goes a big WOw for what i'm thinking and feeling these days.. and by "these days", i mean like 4-5 days which i've been spending watching Sex and the City like nuts!! every single evening and the night follows, of course.. i accidentally happened to click on to see the 6th season and after i watched the whole 6th, i began to watch it from the very beginning. so now i'm halfway through the second season and it's freaking fun!!!

when i first met it years ago, i happened to watch some nasty make-out scenes and i freaked out so i shut the channel off.. how childish is that considering i was a teenager?? and then i came to realise that i built a barrier between me and it.. and that was it. i've never watched it again until this week.. and you know what ladies and gentlemen??

I've literally FALLEN FOR it... i got addicted to it... i got obsessed with it...

and now being 22 (turning into 23 after sixteen days), i'm not ashamed to watch and talk about it ANY LONGER. because NOW i can totally understand what the heck it's all about: Pure Real True Life...

and i'm so learning about the relationships and the friendship for that matter. and oh yeah, i'm totally in love with the intimacy, warmth, interaction and love among those four fantastic ladies. and i'm so happy to be able to have destroyed that barrier i got years ago, now that i've almost been through more or less the same phases. ok. maybe not THAT much but i mean come on:  Who didn't, right??

i'm so happy that i gained new kinda perspectives through life itself.. seeing things a lil bit different right now.. and yeah, i'm so laughing at myself thinking how immature i was to have considered it as a porn, almost. but that's not THAT rediculous right?? how would i know for god's sakes that it tries to tell US something; to teach US something... at that kind of age, right?

so keeping my expectations high about it, i'm off...

love,

pee ess... This is the 200th post!! and i can't believe i'm so here... oh, and what a coincidence: i dropped two big "Bombs" with one post... isn't that something friends?? :)


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Getting To Know You Better: Part 4

(Ok. first of all, thanks a lot to those who participated this chain last time but i have to note that STILL not many people -i mean as many as i expected- joined this post.. so i'm a lil bit disappointed -i must say.. but i'm still fucking hopeful 'cause i really do wanna know ya'll a lot better than i do now..)

So Here is how we're gonna do it:

you can do a post about this and give YOUR answers (not direct them to anoyone else) in your post with linking back (and leave a comment and let me know so i can check back), or you can simply answer leaving a comment below.. Either way is heartily accepted..

here it goes ladies and gentlemen:

1. What is your biggest dream you haven't been able to accomplish yet?

2. Are you interested in fashion? Then who is your inspiration? (this question is also for men. please don't skip it)

3. Which day of the week do you feel YOURS most? (except for friday.. i know why ya'll love it, right?)

4. Do you watch television? What kind of programmes is your cup of tea?

5. How would you complete this sentence below:

- I feel lonely even in the crowds because/when...

6.  Can you play a musical instrument? OR if you'd want to play one, what would that be?

7. What are you thinking right now?

8. If you'd have to live in another country, where would you wanna go? Why?

9. Which one do you do more often: Laugh or Cry? Why?

1o. Give me a good reason why you truly welcome 2010?

if you'd like other people to see and read your answers, please enter your name and your link below.. thanks!!

AND you can still join the first, second and the third parts...

hope you join and enjoy it..

love,

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Fabulous Quote of the Day

A lie gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on. - Sir Winston Churchill




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it'll cheer up your christmas.. trust me!

This is a really powerful and beloved song here in Turkey.. especially in The Blacksea Region.. it's really has beautiful lyrics and story. wish i could translate it all. but even my english would not be enuf for it so.. umm, the song is called "Divane Asik Gibi (Like a Lunatic Lover)".. so it's crazy.. this version of the song is sung and played by 45 different singers/artists..

BUT REMEMBER:

YOU SHOULD DEFINITELY MAKE IT TO THE END!!!

 hope you'll like it..

love,

..

Ok. i'm gonna do it just for ya...

you know we do not celebrate "christmas" over here, right buddies?? (well, since we're not christians..) but yeah, there are some others who do some "early" new year celebrations during christmas, which exactly reminds me/us of the way you celebrate it and which is not appropriate according to our religion -of course..

but anywayzz, for those of you who do the celebrations, there it goes:

hope ya'll have a freaking awesome time with the ones you love..

thanks for being here with me as much as you can!!

you guys are the best..

happy holidays lovelies!!

xoxo,

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Day 14: Notes...

Dear Hubby,

 i still know that you don't/can't read any of these

but

i don't give a shit..

i still wanna write it anyway..

so,

you know what i just

thought about??

it's just been 2 little weeks

and

there's almost 5 months

until you'll return..

it sounds like crazy, i know.

but

i also don't know how to make it

shorter

and even shorter...

please try not to think

about the days..

don't worry, they'll fly away

so quickly!!

at least hoping so..

keep well.. and warm..

love,

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love,

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Day 12: Notes...

**Update: yes, you called at last. but i didn't like it this time! why? because when i said "i already know that ("that" is something he's been telling me since he's gone). stop saying it over and over again!", you hung up on me by just saying "bye!".. you hung up on me!!!! i don't wanna talk to you.. ever again!!*

Dear Hubby,

you haven't called me for 4 days

(so far.. maybe you'll call sometime after

this post, who knows..)

and i actually

began to wonder what is

going on out there..

is something wrong?

or they don't allow you to call

anyone these days?

anywayzz, waiting...

i'm so pissed off nowadays!!

"why" ?

well, it's hard to describe but

almost everyone around the blogsphere

(or around me)

makes plans for the christmas or

for the new year's eve..

with their girl/boyfriends/fiancé(s)/husbands

even though this is winter

and they have snow everywhere..

i'm sure they're gonna have a

freaking awesome time

with their partners...

*sigh*

so, i've been dreaming the same for us two..

of course,

we'd have to have our own budget

for that kind of holiday,

right?

i know..

 i'm so jealous of them..

hope we could do the same 

some time..

by the way:
i don't think so but,
did it snow over there?

love,

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Words Women Use and What They Really Mean

• Fine - This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use “fine” to describe how a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments.

• Five Minutes - This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the rubbish, so it’s an even trade.

• Nothing - This means “something”, and you should be on your toes. “Nothing” is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. “Nothing” usually signifies an argument that will last “Five Minutes” and end with “Fine”.

• Go Ahead - At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.

• Go Ahead (With Raised Eyebrows) - This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over “Nothing” and will end with the word “Fine”.

• Go Ahead (Neutral Expression) - This means “I give up” or “do what you want because I don’t care” You will get a “Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead” in just a few minutes, followed by “Nothing” and “Fine” and she will talk to you in about “Five Minutes” when she cools off.

• Loud Sigh - This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A “Loud Sigh” means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over “Nothing”.

• Soft Sigh - Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. “Soft Sighs” mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.

• That’s Okay - This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. “That’s Okay” means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. “That’s Okay” is often used with the word “Fine” and in conjunction with a “Raised Eyebrow”.

• Please Do - This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be careful and you shouldn’t get a “That’s Okay”.

• Thanks - A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say you’re welcome.

• Thanks A Lot - This is much different from “Thanks.” A woman will say, “Thanks A Lot” when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the “Loud Sigh.” Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the “Loud Sigh,” as she will only tell you “Nothing”.

any other words you'd like to add up??

love,

p.s. welcome to my new readers/followers!! hope you'll have a freakin' good time here :)



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Fabulous Quote of the Day

Give it all you've got because you never know if there's going to be a next time. - Danielle Ingrum

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Day 10: Notes...

Dear Hubby,

Nothing much,

trust me..

i think i'm gonna be

heading for my hometown..

finally..

"when" you ask??

well, i'm not sure of the day

but i think it's gonna be probably

on wednesday..

or

hoping so i guess..

i know i'm so late

for having those tutorials.

please,

don't be mad

at me..

i know i should hurry up

and find something (job) to do

but

i don't feel like doing

anything

nowadays..

ok.ok.

for so long..

but i'm gonna try,

you'll see..

love,

btw: remember i promised you

about going to bed much earlier

when i last wrote to you??

well, i don't go to sleep

5 in the morning any more..

it's either 3 or 2 in the morning now..

but

3, most of the time..

keep well..

please..

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Does she ALWAYS have to be so F***ing Beautiful??

ok. i admit it.. i don't hate her.. but i'm jealous of her.. that's the truth.. and i really don't get how she can possibly be so beautiful all the time!!

 

 

 

 oh, fate!!  how i do curse on you!!

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Fabulous Quote of the Day

I keep my ideals, because in spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart. - Anne Frank



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